Love, Fear & Pizza

Have you ever noticed how, in movies and sitcoms, it's difficult for a couple to say, "I love you" for the first time, especially to be the first one to say it?  You typically see the recipient of the words squirm and reply with something like "Yeah, me too." 

Maybe this awkward situation is true to your life.  In your relationship with your SO (significant other), you experienced the near fear of saying this phrase for the first time or it took you, like it did me, a few minutes for the words to actually come out of your mouth.  

Why is it that saying, "I love you" to someone is such a difficult thing?  Is it something about that particular combination of consonants and vowels?  Maybe there is something about the phonetics of this phrase.  You know, like how Ron Weasley had spells backfire by not enunciating correctly.  

If it is something about the phrase itself, then why do we find it so easy to say "I love" pizza?  I mean, after all I do love some Salvatore's pizza!  Or, "I love" Dreamland ribs or a good steak?  Or "I love" my new puppy or my car? 

Why can it be so hard to say "I love you" to another person?  It has to be because of the implications of such a phrase.  To say "I love you" about pizza simply conveys a pleasurable feeling we have about pizza.  To say "I love you" to another person carries far more weight.  It isn't simply conveying a feeling about a person.  If it were simply about a feeling then we wouldn't have this fear associated with saying it.  

To say "I love you" to a person carries with it responsibility and commitment.  It carries with it an openness and vulnerability.  When someone claims to love someone you expect that their life and actions show this - it is more than how a person feels about another.  When a friend tells you about the abusive relationship she is in and follows it with "but he says he loves me," you don't believe that man loves her and you wonder how she can be so deceived.  When you hear about someone having and affair and they reply "yes, I did sleep with that person, but I love you," you don't believe that there is love there.  Love doesn't do such things.

You expect that when a person loves another, they will demonstrate their love through things like kindness, service, protection, placing priority on that person, listening to that person, etc.  We know that when we tell someone we love them then we are essentially committing ourselves to that person and to live these things out. What we fear when we say "I love you" is that that we won't be able to follow through with this commitment or that they won't return the same. 

1 John 4:18-19 says, "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us."

There is such security in knowing that you are loved, in seeing love in the people around you.  Many different studies have shown that one of the most influential factors in a child's development in regards to feelings of security and confidence is the child knowing that his/her mom and dad love each other.  You can see the truth in this by the opposite being exemplified.  More and more people are foregoing marriage for cohabitation out of a distrust of marriage and fear of divorce.  More and more kids are filled with insecurity and doubts about themselves, love, God...  

But enough about psychologies and philosophies - what about you?  What fear and insecurity do you have?  Is it about your abilities, your looks, your short-comings, your place in life, your finances, your spouse, your children, your parenting...?  

Before you try to hide your insecurities and shortcomings as Adam and Eve did in the Garden, like we all still do, before you try to build your strengths and minimize your weaknesses, ask yourself this question, "have I received the love of God in this area?"  Have you let God make you perfect in love?  Not perfect in ability, or without fault, but made perfect in love.  When you know you are loved, especially in the face of your insecurities, that is when fear leaves.  That is when confidence comes.  

Acknowledge your fear, confess it to God and receive His love - then you will be perfect, knowing He loved you first.

P